Every year around March, I feel this internal itching. It slowly begins around the first day of 50 degree weather. I'm itching for change. Give me the outside. I feel more alive there. Today was filled with sunshine and warmer air.
Spring is always a reflective time for me. Maybe it's the innate connection we have to the rhythm of the natural world.... or it could just be that seeing the sun for the first time in 5 months ignites our brains to work again.... Eitherway, this past winter has been a good one, one of preparations, planning, working and rest. There's been a quiet growing of the seeds that were planted last year. We've been endlessly turning the soil, watering the seedlings, giving shelter to the infancy stages of a plan, a dream. Today, as i spent most of the day outside, I thought a lot about this. I feel my itching to move to the next season, inside and out. These next few months are a sort of coming -of -age for our family as we spend our last 2 1/2 months readying ourselves to leave. It feels right on time.
Another thing that occurred to me today was how thankful I am for so many small beginings. So many amazing things begin small.
babies, cakes baked from scratch, a spring flower about to bloom.....
As I was reading through an old journal I realized that it was almost 1 year ago to the date that we decided to go! Yes, we'd been planning/ dreaming/ talking about going to train in the Philippines for over a year at that point and after a week long midwifery skills training I attended with Mercy in Action, we made the decision to move forward. And.... small step after small step things began to move. Sometimes with ferocious tenacity, other times at a turtle's pace.... but nonetheless, it was movement. It's been work. Lots of plowing the tough soil so the seeds can take root. But now, we see they have. They have indeed. And seemingly right on time.
I wanted to share one last thought that came to me from a wise woman I know:
"Discipline is doing what you don't want to do now to become who you want to be in the future."
Small, faithful steps reap a harvest of fruit. What is your spring reflection? Maybe you are reaping the harvest, or just starting to plant the seeds, whatever it is, remember not to distain the small beginnings...they are exactly what is needed for the foundation of the greater journey.
"Unless a seed fall to the ground and die, it remains alone, but if it dies, it bears much fruit." - Jesus