days like these

any parent knows how this goes....you have a list full of things to do, ongoing and time sensitive. The day starts out with all good intentions and your mind is focused. You gulp down the 2nd cup of coffee for extra insurance that you will start the race off ready!  You begin your mission- to take down that to-do list.....

Then somewhere shortly after breakfast, the real things of the day begin.....one child needs a band aid, then you resume your mission, the next child wants you to watch as they perform a physical feat of strength off of the living room furniture, then you go back to your to-do list. this time, you get a few extra minutes and your faith rises that you actually may accomplish one task before the next interruption....and you do. Then the phone rings. it's a call you have to take. no problem, you can finish the dishes while talking. except you can't because your oldest child has some important life questions that he's thinking of and now would be a good time to discuss them. so, being the sensitive yet pragmatic parent that you are, you tell him how important it is to you to talk with him, but he has to wait til you are off the phone and you get a minute.  The phone call ends and you then realize the toilet is clogged....and your off to get the plunger. And I forgot to mention that during this whole time, you've let the dog in and out of the house a few times........

etc.. etc.... you can fill in the blanks for the rest of the day. and then by dinner time, you realize you never even got to the rest of the do list and even more importantly, you forgot to answer those life questions your oldest son was asking.....

these are the days that everything seems futile to me and I can easily feel it was a waste of a day. what did i accomplish? The to-do list is staring at me like it won the battle I was waging on it, I wasn't able to give my full attention to any one thing, and my brain feels like it's been cooking on grill for the past 8 hours. How could I have done this day better? These are the days it seems like everything around me is pulling on me and I can't say I gave myself to one thing whole heartedly. I hate ending the day with such frustration. 

Then, I lay down to collect my thoughts before bed and throw up a prayer that God will help me "unwind" and have some clarity on the lessons that were in my day. If I wasn't listening closely and quietly, I may assume the lessons are in the obvious: do less, focus more, don't let myself be so divided, organize myself better, organize my house more.....(fill in the blank).

But, then I hear "you were alive today, you felt life, however frustrating it was. don't let any day you are alive and well to feel like a waste." slowly, my feelings of frustration turn into thankfulness.

So, then I realize the lesson, in days like these, is to allow myself to "feel life", no matter what it holds. That being wherever I am, doing whatever is before me, is enough. 

 

I'll end with this: 

"Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. 
Life is beauty, admire it. 
Life is a dream, realize it. 
Life is a challenge, meet it. 
Life is a duty, complete it. 
Life is a game, play it. 
Life is a promise, fulfill it. 
Life is sorrow, overcome it. 
Life is a song, sing it. 
Life is a struggle, accept it. 
Life is a tragedy, confront it. 
Life is an adventure, dare it. 
Life is luck, make it. 
Life is too precious, do not destroy it. 
Life is life, fight for it." 
— Mother Teresa

 

Here's to your day!

Jamie